2.01.2005
there's just something about tuesday nights and strawberries n JL. they always seem to work together.
i wrote your name down on a piece of paper and how i felt about you and i let it burn slowly, wishing my silly little wish would came true. that this time around you'd be mine and mine to keep. but i know its all a dream because u have someone else in mind and there'll always be a something or someone else preventing this blessed union from pulling through. i wish the poem was for me, how silly, i know.
ok i like him okay.. there i said it.. u win..! like he's ever gonna know its him..
//Yellowcard//my only one//
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1.31.2005
things are falling into place
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Mikey Way+Frank Iero=<3
anyone nice enough to lend me their credit card so i can get myself the My Chemical Romance Tee by The Shirts For A Cure Project? paying for it will help raise funds for worthy charities like the Breast Cancer Foundation so lending me your credit card to buy it would be for a worthy cause and it helps me get a kickass shirt which i will pay you back for immediately. someone help? hee.. make it someone who knows me and is easily reachable so i can get the shirt ASAP. think of it as a belated christmas present you owe me? ehehe.
its been a good day. :)
i'm happy because of you
//My Chemical Romance//Helena
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1.30.2005
before i go off to have some decent rest after several days of sleep deprivation, i'll update. Not because i need to, but because i want to. Okay that's not important.
I need to get back to being me again. Bad dreams about work being a life long commitment thanks to the constant nagging my parents present to me on a daily basis. I no longer feel like myself, yet i keep feeding myself with lies. The last thing i need is for me to go under.
I think too much, I wish i didn't.
I'm at the crossroads for another fall. I need something to go right, something to go my way, to bring me back up. And I need it soon. I've put a lot of mental energy into things in my life recently and so far nothing is quite working out. I've been through depressions before, and I hate to allow myself to go back to that place. At this point I'm on the brink. I've resisted for so long, but I'm losing sight of why. The next month should be interesting...
time to get back on my feet.
i wish you were mine and that was for me.
//Funeral For A Friend//this year's most open heartbreak//
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1.25.2005
since its been awhile since i last updated, i shall leave out the details of my so called life. nothing much happened anyway, so i shall just post something up so people(who have been nagging incessantly) will shut up and be satisfied with the very fact that i've decided to please them by typing an entry.
yes i am okay.
yes i will call you soon.
yes i will meet up with you soon. (if i can)
i hope that answers most of your questions.
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i've never been much of a yellowcard fan since i pretty much think they're sell outs now due to the overwhelming number of "yellowcard fans" who claim to be "emo". but i can't help but like their new song.
here i go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
you are my only, my only one
does that not just make you go ahhh.. okay i'm just plain nuts.. mom thinks i need to be in a relationship because she thinks i'm becoming lesbian..
PLEASE! i'm just waiting for the right one. it doesn't mean i'm lesbian.
this is all Randall's fault for spending two hours in my room.. grrr..
p.s: if i can't find a decent layout i just might scrap this dam blog and move to my LJ officially. which would be sad, but no one ever responds here anyway.
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1.10.2005
i for one feel you shouldn't go over to Aussie for further studies, because your 20 year old ass gets ill far too often for you to actually operate properly. plus once you leave who's gonna call me on saturday nights and listen to my crazy theories while you finish up your work at camp.
to tell you the truth its scary knowing that you're gonna leave. when you come back you'll start working and i'll be leaving for uni and i won't see you become the big judge or whatever it is you're gonna become. and there's no one there to take good care of you, slip disc problems and all. its scary because i'm gonna miss you too much, and i won't have my big brother figure anymore. who's gonna scold me when i screw up? who's gonna hug me when i cry? who's gonna be as proud as you are when i do something really good or accomplish something really great?
don't go?
wishful thinking..
Funeral For A Friend-Juneau
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1.06.2005
brother n sister fight again? what's new?
i'm giving up on even asking.
jack of all trades, master of none.
that's all i have to say..
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so mom won the battle, i took the piercing off.. if i didn't i would've died from the nagging anyway.. plus a certain someone talked to me last night n told me i should listen because of everything that's going on.. n i trust that person like 73974297592759345793 times more than anyone else in this world, so yup i listened.. its okay, i can still pierce it again, some other time.. heh..
okay no time to talk, have to help mom with something..
the things i do to pls my mom
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1.05.2005
since Joce did this for me a few mins ago, i'm doing one for her too..
so here's to my best girlfriend,
I love you too Joce.. <3
thanks for always being there for me n cheering me up whenever i needed it. n congrats on the award.. *hugs&kisses*
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thanks to everyone who's been there for me the past few days.. really means alot to me.. n thank u mr PB Vickram for being my constant source for laughter.. wouldn't have made it through without everyone elses support..
Note to self: never call keith when u're this close to crumbling, because all he does is talk about himself and about how he could've been killed by the tsunami if he and his friends had actually gone through with their plans to go surfing..
seriously, ppl are dead and alot of others are still suffering, making yourself sound pitiful during times like these just makes me sick. plus details of you and your now ex bf getting your dicks pierced together is so not something i wanna find out. gory details of your private relationship should remain private. plus i do not need to know how having your dick pierced will benefit your future wife, whoever it is that's "lucky" enough.
but, i still love u anyway my gay ass friend who's rich enough to waste his money at the warren golf club every week. because u make me listen to your crap n u never fail to listen to my crap, plus u're donating a big sum of money to my shopping fund..
n to all who told me not to pierce my tongue, i did it anyway.. let me make my own mistakes pls, that's the whole point of living life..
dad's gone one of his business trips again, its been a year since his affair but i'm so not trusting him anyway. if he can do it twice who's to say he won't do it again. plus mom says he asked for $500 bucks for this trip. how are we, mother n daughter, not to suspect that he's gone to meet his thai mistress again. might i add that he's on a trip to vietnam, which is very thailand. okay not that near, but u can travel over pretty easily.
its not like i like not trusting my dad, but how am i supposed to trust someone who was once willing to leave his family to support his previous american mistress. a woman who can support her three kids. n leave me n my mom.. i was 9, n mom already had kidney failure then, but yet he was willing to leave us.
that's one of the reasons to why i decided to not quit. because if things go really bad, i wanna be able to help mom out. even if i have to sacrifice alot of things. the last thing i wanna do is to have mom go suicidal on me again. i had Kal to talk sense into me when things went wrong back then, i have Joce now. but still its hard. n i have to be there for Eunice too..
i wish affairs were never invented n that men could keep their wedding vows..
fuck this..
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